UGH.....Don’t you hate when you second guess yourself........I have begun to second guess my talent...I used to rely on it, now...with FROSTY....I feel as though I have lost it......I am torn with betraying a friend, dealing with the worst script I have ever read and a cast I did not cast. They may never hire me to direct again after this...... Can you lose talent and instinct?

Well, got my date for lap band surgery....a little freaked since I have some leg swelling and I am little cocerned that it is DVT or something that would preclude the surgery...HOPE NOT! told my Mom today and while that should seem easy for a 47 y.o. man....what she thinks matters a lot. She was fine with it!.

More soon

show over

The show I filled in for is over and I am done......I hate knowing things I cannot divulge......Head neck and ears into an election, Seussical, a huge concert at Work and budget and contract negotiations for the BOE.......Other than that not busy!

Amazing vacation with my love to see me babydoll and sister in FL....worried about my sister...hope things improve.

Craziness, but I thrive on it...

Hurt my leg tonight...echoacrdiagram wednesday.....Hope to hear about surgery soon.

UGHHHHHHHHH!

TORN...TORN....TORN....

A CLOSE FRIEND CALLED TONIGHT AND ASKED ME TO REPLACE A BEST FRIEND IN A SHOW BECAUSE OF INDISCRETIONS.........

WHY ME!

I NEED TO THINK THIS TROUGH...TO THINK THAT MY FRIEND HAS BEEN INVOLVED IN SOMETHING SHADY IS HEARTBREAKING!

I HATE POLITICS

Try and get on to the BOE here in West Haven to help the kids and help push the dirty politics out....and you fall victim to it......Dirty evil manipulating political thieves

a hurtle

Back again........feeling a little better about myself......working toward the surgery.....passed a hurtle...My MD....he is for it and we have arranged a physical...Happier!

dance class

Taught a dance class tonight...Feel like crap now....waiting to eat...may I am hungry...wish I could live off the fat. Waiting to get questionnaire from lap band doc. Wish it could be tomorrow.........